My sister and I are planning a memorial service during the Easter holiday for our angel boys. I was working on the program today. I never thought I would have to do such a thing. My heart became weak and my fingers numb as I tried to think of the words I wanted to write in the program. How can you possibly put all of your feeling and thoughts into a few sentences about a child you have lost??
My heart is broken and I wonder if it will ever be repaired. I feel bitter this week. I read stories, poems, and blogs. They are all so inspirational and uplifting...how? How does someone who has lost something so precious have such hope. Don't get me wrong, I have days where I am nothing but positive about the situation. Then I have days like today that get the best of me. Today I am drowning in my sorrow.
I am not sure if you believe in God or not but I will tell you that my faith in Him and my relationship with him has helped me immensely. You are still so early in your grief and I know it feels like you are drowning but the waters will recede, soon enough. Keep your head up and trust that God sees your heart breaking and he is there to give his gift of peace if you are just willing to ask for it. I am so sorry and I will be praying and praying for you and your family... Though sorrow may last for the night, JOY comes in the morning! Psalm 30:5
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